i have no motovation. maybe it's becasue i'm alone. maybe it's because jackie's at home, and not here. i'm silently wondering if i'll be able to sleep. alone. it's been so long.

the motovation comes in bursts. i write a little code. i figure out a problem. i make something better. but then it dies, and i look for something else to amuse myself. but i've read all the weblogs that i can handle. no one whom i want to update their site has updated since the last time i checked.

i think i need to come up with a way to do web-programming and drive my car, at the same time. you see, i get all these great ideas when i'm in the car. i figure out the problem that's been bugging me all day. i think of some way to incorporate everything into something new. i think of something wonderful to post on my website, or the way the next redesign is going to look. but, there is no outlet for these thoughts. by the time i get in front of a computer again, i've forgotten half of the ingenious thoughts that i had, and i am suddenly unmotovated.

when i get unmotovated, i do really silly things, like tonight. i pay-per-viewed "toy story 2". you are probably thinking why the hell i would do that? well. i liked the first one. but not for the story line. i watched the whole thing, thinking to myself that every character, every movement. every color... it was all computer generated. and it's more real than a normal disney movie. i see the technology. the story is "cute" and has "lessons". but all i can think about is that they created most of the damn thing on an sgi.

<drools>

anyways. it's a computer generated movie. with actors who's voices i recognize doing the talking. and the computer generated characters are doing the acting. simple, right? not really. but the best part of the whole damn movie was the credits. the credits.

in every jackie chan movie, they have the out-takes (where the actors messed up, or something didn't go the way it was planned) during the credits. no one gets up. it's a phenominon, but it happens. everyone in the theater stays in their seats. anyways.

it's an animated movie, right? so there shouldn't be out-takes. but there were, and they were the funniest part of the whole damn movie. it was the characters in the movie, from the animated scenes in the movie, making the same mistakes that normal actors make, but no. they are animated, which means that someone had to draw that messup, and someone else had to do the voice for it.

i think it was the first time i've laughed out loud by myself in weeks.